♥Sunday, October 09, 2005
from the title? I believe I can see question marks creating on the heads of readers now *really wonder whether I have any?* haha anyway okay this is what my story will go today. My agent(the one who plan the visa and stuff for me to study here) Sharon, Kayan and Chwen Huey*note: first time mentioning my darlings on my blog* hehe. also happen to share the same agent as me.
Okay, he pay Perth a visit and therefore invited us for dim sum in this chinese resturant call "Long men" so I guess in English its call Dragon Door? haha Whether we get into our under graduate course next year is part of the reponsibility shouldered by our very "concerned" agent. So as usual, it was the chats starting from school work. Filling us with questions like what is impeding us from scoring high results like his past students. WAKE UP Mr Agent, its different now. I am not trying to defend myself. Beacuse it is seriously not like I have yet to put in enough effort and done enough. I have really tried my best, but maybe ya to me its still not perfect yet. But the way he had put forwards his views are blantly trying to tell us " You are not not cut up for it and it makes me ponder why?"
The requirements for last year were much lower, and this year there is an frightening increase in the health science courses. I tried my best to convey my msg of what our impediment is. Unfortunately, to no avail. He does not understand the trauma inflicted on me, I'm a person as everyone will know that will think very very far, and whenever the thought of not being able to be in the course I want, and the bleak future I have, I really have no mood to do anything anymore, and just stare into space. At times I can be having a whale of the time, and suddenly out of the blue, I am feeling all down and disappointed in myself. When I am all lonely and isolated, I feel like tearing one or 2.
Its not that I am trying to be impertinent. As everyone know, chey a 17 years old girl who is just trying to be rude and rebellious. Thats not true, I am just saying whats true in Dragon Door. I did not blurt out everything impetuously.
Aileen
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