♥Sunday, January 29, 2006
First day of Chinese New Year. First time of my 17 years of life, I am celebrating my Chinese new year in another place other than Malaysia, and not to mention in a total Ang Moh country.
Actually it was not as bad as I thought it would have been. WEnt to Fremantle today and it was so relaxing. Despite not having the "ka pom" fire crackers sounds here and there or the "gong xi fa cai" songs *which irritates me at times* in the atmosphere but I think I still enjoyed myself. Fremantle, always a relaxing place for me, allows my whole being to feel on a holiday mood that I wish to stay in for as long as possible. Really kinda love that place, all the greens, even with the sun *enjoy the sun today*. Indeed a great place, I will not want to miss esp if I am ...... (see who smart enough to fill this up) haha..
So its a new year, one year older, in exact calculations in another few more days. Really wish that day do not come, or can come slower.
Having your birthday in the early mths really ain't a whole lot of great excitment esp when you are missing out blessings , celebrations and wishes from your closest friends you yearn they can be with you. So every morning when I wake up, it never fails that I will check out the time on my mobile and realise that the day which I really don't wish to come is coming.
I would not say I am not excited about it, but instead I will say I am not as excited as I always do when my birthday was nearing. So anyway after much thinking, it suddenly dawn on me that what really matters is not whether there are any celebrations, having a low profile quiet one can be not too bad neither, considering the fact too that my mother is here too and ...... (blanks)? (don't noe) But seriously the actual reality is that, I don't want to grow up and enter the age zone where "childishness, kiddo, babyish" have to leave me.
Of course no matter what, I have to grow up, but I never thought time will be accelerated so fast till the extend, I am reading Pharmaceutics First year a few mins ago. I am entering university.. It have been always been my dream since young to be able to enter uni and be a graduate * that time to me being a degree holder quite a whoo ha,-naive* I manage but yet here this time, I seemed to be wanting to run away from it. Soon after this will be thinking of my resume to apply for a job for this summer break. Everything has changed. NAIVE is surely the word I wish to be again. But it just can't stay for long anymore. MY life ain't gonna be as simple as it used to be anymore. Maybe I am thinking too much. haha
Just wish that even reaching 18 I will not get any discrimination for having the fetish of watching cartoons and listening to kiddo songs. And praying and hoping real hard that I can sitll be the childish kiddo me - forever baby darling Aileen ... possible??? Who is to ans? hahahaha...
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